Gotta be at work in an hour... had a headache earlier, took meds, sat in shower.. now im just drained of energy.. Martin and I are fighting more and more.. cant wait till next Sunday when I get out of here on a lil vakay with my sis.. I soooo need to be away from Martin for a while.. just cant stand him most days anymore.. not sure what is gonna happen in the future, but right now it's not looking good.. im just not happy anymore..
Sunday, October 13, 2013
Thursday, October 3, 2013
ShayTober month of ShayLoss
I'm 289lbs, 5' 7" and 26 years old. Enough is enough... I don't want to die young or be bed-bound from being overweight, and especially knowing that I can avoid this... It's going to be hard, I'm going to want to quit really really bad most days..
Can I do this? Gosh I really hope so... My goal weight is 180lbs. That's over 100lbs I want to LOSE..
What I have to keep telling myself is that it's not going to be overnight that I'll see results. It's going to take months and months.. maybe even up to a YEAR to see that kind of change. So I need to set a monthly goal.. If I say I want to lose 100lbs in 1 year, that means I need to lose 8.3 lbs a month. That sounds decent enough. That's about 2lbs a week, average... I think I can work with that..
Hopped on Craigslist last night, found someone selling a treadmill.. A lot of my problem also is being outside, I think that if I had a treadmill that would help.. Hopefully I'll hear some good news back from the person selling it....
Alrighty then... thats it for today, will post short blogs throughout the days of what I exercise and eat. Here's to reaching my goal..... Oh, and a special Thank You the Shay Carl for the motivation and inspiration.. I'm not fat, just got a little extra cushioning...
~MomiDezi
Saturday, March 23, 2013
Shitty day
Today is a stay in bed depressed day, and what does Martin do?! Drags my fat ass out in public so I look like the grouchy fat bitch! And that's just what is happening... All I want to do I'd throw up, cry, and lay in bed... But noooo! I'm stuck sitting in the car with the freaking sun blazing in my eyes, wanting to throw up, while Martin and Ciah are in the store... That just pisses me off even more! I just want to give up and cry...
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
4 year anniversary!
Today marks the 4th year of my marriage to Martin... We've had our ups and downs, some minor, others major... But together, we've gotten thru them all and still do... Today we need to take care of some SSI stuff, then Martin might go work a bit... But tonight we'll be going out to a nice dinner... Hopefully he'll like it and not complain..... Much!
Friday, March 8, 2013
Cleaned
Martin and I cleaned the living room last night, as well as Miciah's room... Even had to wash Ciah's carpets, ground in poptarts and blackberries make for a stinky carpet!!
today I slept in till 5pm... How lazy is that!? Hmm... I guess technically it was yesterday, as in Thursday.... And today being Friday since it's 3:25am...
Maybe "today" I'll be more productive!
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Slacking
Yah, so I've been slacking off with my blogging... Probably from the depression... Going back to bed...
Monday, March 4, 2013
3/4/13
It's 12:08 and I don't want to get out of bed at all!! I have to go to work a little early today so I could possibly talk to Pam.. I'm almost having an anxiety attack now just thinking about that conversation... I want to revoke my decision of quitting... But at the same time I just want to leave and never go back... ugh! My stomach is upset now... Thank goodness I close with Tony tonight, otherwise it would be a very crappier day indeed...
For now though, I just want to stay in bed.. But I'm going to force myself to get my fat butt up and drag it to the shower.. Then make some coffee and let my son out of his room.. Oh, and make some lunch and watch some anime.. All before work..
Sunday, March 3, 2013
3/3/13
Spent sooooo much money today... But the fridge is full to capacity, some of it is even in a bucket outside in the cold so it won't spill... Lol!!!
3/2/13
So yesterday was uneventful.. I made my recipe for taco lasagna, which turned out great!! I watched some anime, think I might get back into that, since I have alot more free time with work being over with and all.. Watched an anime called Amnesia. Almost has a groundhog day feel to it, but with different dimensions! Weird! But at least the male characters are hott! Only 8 episodes have been released, not sure how often episodes are uploaded, so I guess i'll need to check back regularly..
Ended the day with a migraine.. Wonderful.. Took my prescription meds, got my ice packs, and went to bed.. Like I said uneventful day..
Saturday, March 2, 2013
:(
What a crappy day.. Starting to get a migraine.. :( and I still have to finish dinner... Don't want to... Not even hungry now...
BANDAIDS!!
So Miciah really wanted one of each color on his face... The purple one is the only one covering a real booboo...
Friday, March 1, 2013
Ahhhhhh!!
I just spent over $240 at Walmart!! Again!! I bought a juice/blender thingy, a fire proof safe, twilight breaking dawn part 2, portable DVD players for the car, windshield wiper blades, and big laundry totes for clothes and other stuff to pack away... I purchased a storage unit for six months in advance, so we can start to clean out the apartment... We have several things we need to sell, hopefully I can make back some of the money I spent...
Imma loser, yup!
Yup, imma loser... I'm in line for the final twilight movie to be released on DVD... As a BadLipReading says: that's so loserly!! Of course, 99% of those in line are all girls, and the poor male souls that ARE here, are only here because their mom, girlfriend, or significant other dragged them here...
What a day..
So, as usual, work sucked balls.. Saw a few regulars I like, but in the end, I'm just sick of being a cashier and having to deal with sick disgusting idiots!!
Only to come home and be irritated more! Maybe I'm about to start my cycle or something, cause I'm feeling extremely irritable, cranky, and bitchy!! Martin keeps pushing all the wrong buttons to set me off.. I would just love one freaking day by myself in peace and quiet.. But that would be asking too much.. Can't even sit at my computer to play Sims without getting bothered!!
Breakfast oops..
Okay so I didn't have time for a bowl of cereal... So, yah, I stopped at McDonalds... Got a egg mcmuffin.. Bit into it and felt a "crunch" on my front tooth... Eggshell!! Yummy!
It's ALIVE!
Ugh.... I may be moving and drinking coffee, doesn't mean I'm alive! So this morning I definitely need a coffee.. Miciah woke me up around 5:45am!! Guess the poor kid had a nightmare.. I made him a cup of chocolate milk and invited him to cuddle with momi in her bed, of course he was exited for that! He wiggled his way in between Martin and me, laid on my arm so it went all numb and tingly.. Regardless, I love cuddling with my baby! One of those little momi pleasures cause once they grow up you won't get those little things..
Aaaaaanyways!! Going to attempt to eat a bowl of cereal for breakfast.. I don't know what it is, but within the past six months I haven't been able to eat cereal with milk.. I always end up getting nauseous..
Wow, look at the time! I still have to have another cup of coffee, cereal, and get dressed for work! Time flies when your typing!
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Bedtime correction!
Miciah fell asleep!! Woohoo!! NOW I'm going to bed.. Hehe.. If Martin let's me.. Yah.. ;) ;)
Bedtime!
Gotta wake up at 8:00am for work! And I'm still awake! Just painted my nails.. Inspiration, The Grinch! Lol! I think Miciah (my son) is still awake too.. And Martin (husband) just turned off the shower.. I can smell his clean manliness from here! Mmmm.. Gonna go cuddle up with that and try to get some sleep!! G'nite!
Thanks Tiffi
Special shoutout to my sister Tiffi who told me about this blogging site!! This hopefully will be the start of new me!!